I lost it!


I think I lost it.

Maybe I never had it?

Was it all just for nothing?

Is this the end of the road?

I thought I could write,

Gosh, my mind is numb, what a pitiful plight!

Is it the booze?

Nah, shouldn’t be! Its already a part of my blood now!

Is it the stress?

Maybe..but isn’t my booze already ending my stress’ duress?

I don’t know!

Maybe its the loneliness setting in!

Well, 3 days since I last opened my door 😀

But, I’m used to this, ain’t I?

Is it a punishment?

Gee, now I get it, maybe it is!

Didn’t I already pay enough, oh you greedy pain,

Just stop doing this!

At least tell me what it’d take?

You’ve already put my life itself at stake!

Zero happiness and an infinite cries,

Maybe this is lifelong, until I die!

 

 

An Answer..


I was there standing alone,

Churning all those painful memories within,castaway and feeling thrown.

I could feel the heavy wind striking hard,

Reminding me of my earliest nightmares,I felt battered,I felt marred.

For once I wanted to be happy,why should it always be pain?

I never found an answer, all my cries were just in vain.

I’ve waited, waited long enough,

I cannot wait any longer, its getting hard,its getting tough.

I could then feel a hand upon me, it brought a sudden warmth, a sudden glee.

Was it the answer that I wanted? Would it mark and end to my misery? Would it end the spree?

I asked it the same, “Would you stay with me forever?”,

“I really need you, I cannot bear us both sever”.

It shared its happiness, it shared its love,

Now, I have a friend,my companion, my turtle-dove.

I no longer felt the pain,

The blistering heat that I bore, is now washed away, oh yes I now felt the rain.

It is my only sanctuary, my only belief,

Please help me LIVE, don’t ever leave me in grief.

That empty street..


There I was,walking on that empty street,

Making tiny steps through those weary trembling feet.

Every step reminding me my pain,my past,

Oh,I just succumbed,feeling terrified and aghast.

Every thought portrayed your presence,your smile,

These are my tiny moments to cherish,Oh bearing this pain is worthwhile.

Was it just the time that divided us or was it only me?

Let me affirm,all that mattered was your happiness,your glee.

The distance now seems so very far,

Every moment with you , now a very deep scar.

We are two worlds apart,

Why should this happen? Oh,it just breaks my heart.

I only wish I had one more chance,

Please show me that your are happy,at least grant me a glance.

The Change..!


Let the day be very bright,

Let all the glory shower upon with all its might,

Let there be people to praise and hold you tight,

Let everything seem perfect and everything set right.

You’ve tasted success,now you are your only king,

You’ve turned violent,your every touch a deadly sting,

You’ve turned forgetful,Oh do you even remember those people who bought you your very first ring?

You’ve leaped beyond your soul,all you see is a vice and never a healthy spring.

There shall definitely come a time when your throne shall slip,

There shall definitely come a time when you cannot stand without a supporting grip,

There shall be a time when you feel soaked and no one to stop the drip.

Its a pretty mean thing,your life,

Every moment is so very precious,cherish them as long as you thrive.

There maybe days of overwhelming darkness and there may be days of eternal sunshine,

But sharing things with your people redefines the balance,change to “ours”,never use “mine”.

Never let your victory or failure decide what you are,

Its not just the result that matters,its about the way you get it that shall lead you far.


The tears..!


Tears just rolled down,

Was I happy or Is it the frown?

What was it? Why did I weep?

What was happening then?Is any one hurt or Is it a nightmare,Oh am I asleep?

I was awake indeed,It was the little baby afore,

She seemed so happy,those eyes-I really adore,

Yes,she was watching me,

Her eyes with filled with happiness and glee.

She held me up her toy,

It was an offer,she wanted to spread the joy.

Oh yea,its the end of the happy times,

The offer brought me back to the earth,It once again put forth the world’s crimes.

Now,I realize the reason behind those tears,

It was the a momentary relief from the pain that I bore for years.

What was the pain I asked again,

It was my shadow,It always glanced with disdain.

It always had a complaint,

That it was tired of being my only acquaint.

Oh yes it was true,there wasn’t any other,

To walk along,hand in hand or to atleast bother.

Maybe it was my only partner for life,

Or is there someone to end the un-ending strife?

Those eyes again pulled me back,

Wish I had the power to take my childhood aback.

I then moved on,the baby still had the smile,

Her eyes,Oh yes they made me LIVE for a while!

Step aside..


A Man often stands in his own shadow and wonders why it’s dark.” 

Just take a step forward, touch the flower afore you, smell its fragrance and you’ll know how beautiful your life is !!