The special day..


Today is special. Special because it marks an end to the quest of something unachievable in my life. It also marks a new start to that something unacheivable too. So, let me tell you how I’ve celebrated this special day.

I woke up at 7:00 AM in the morning, just after a 3 hour sleep. I quickly changed into my tracks and went for a jog – just like everyday. But, today was special. How could I just jog ? So I ran. I ran so fast that I forgot to breathe for sometime. I ran so fast that, my heart was tearing apart, lungs were running out of life and my body sweating with all the alcohol I drank until 3 hours before this. Yet, I ran. I ran until I felt dizzy. Until I was just about to collapse. Then I stopped. It was only because I reached the lakeside nearby. With tears rolling down, I walked closer to the lake. I looked over the horizon, only to look back into all those beautiful memories that I made. Memories so beautiful, that I had to let out a slight chuckle even when my body was all sweating and my heart pounding incessantly. A truck’s horn brought me back into the real world. My real world. A world which is now completely void of any happiness. A world which is open to only a select few, who still had no clue of where I live within it. Now this transition from those memories to the reality was harsh. My heart rate increased, not because of the running, but because of all the pain the real world brought onto me. My tears now didn’t even take a break. This quest of mine that I told you about in the beginning is about to end today. I had to accept that it has to end today. I tried to cry all of this down. Nah I couldn’t. I just hoped this quest of mine won’t bother me once again. But, deep down within I knew I can never overcome this. Now, what else is left of me ? I drink almost everyday, I cannot smile heartily anymore, I am devoid of all the happiness and I am alone. I know I cannot ever be successful in my quest from now on, yet I can only merely TRY to end it, but I know I cannot.

All the lies I’ve told. All the emotions I’ve withheld and all the pain that I’ve caused will end today. But, I know those beautiful memories will always come and haunt me everyday. I hope I can shelter my heart away from all this. I hope I can hold on to some reverie that will help me cope. I don’t know what to write anymore. I don’t know if I’ll write anymore. Only thing I know is a world full of pain, suffering and loneliness that only I live in. I wish my something unachievable can forgive me for giving up. I wish it will understand my pain someday. I wish..

The Distance So Far…


There it was,the shooting star,

I had a wish,to be near you but not so far.

I hoped that my wish would bear a response,

All I wanted was to be near you,Oh please give me a chance.

Why does it have to be this way?

Is my love too small? Or is it just the temporary dismay?

Having your hand in mine is the one thing that I forever crave,

Please walk along,Oh don’t ever waive.

To see you happy and to see you smile,

Is the only thing I shall ever wait for,Oh yes its worthwhile.

I promise to always be there,

To protect you from every possible evil,yes I really do care.

Come to me,take my hand,

Lean over for support,Oh I shall never disband.

Somethings are always written to be entwined,

So is your happiness linked to mine and that can never be declined.

Never Too Far..!


They walked you through your every little step,

They’ve protected you from every pain and every schelp.

They taught you to live,they taught you life,

They’ve given you happiness,helped you through your every strife.

Let these moments be forever,let us all pray,

Oh but the time shall never wait,now you’ve grown to face your own internal fray.

You’ve earned the power to decide,now you make your own choice,

The success is all yours,Oh take your time to rejoice.

A point now comes where things go wrong,

You try to stay alone,you try to pretend strong.

You think you are all alone,

You feel shattered and you feel blown.

The “they” earlier now appear too far,

You now search for every distant little star.

You know you are doing a mistake,

Too much pain you handle,Oh please stop,you may break.

Please go to them,they were always there through your every little gasp,

They’ve always lent you an invisible hand to clasp.

Just go to them,express your heart and soul out,

You’ll always find a shoulder to cry upon,don’t you carry any doubt.

People were never too far out of your love,

They always felt your every little happiness,you were always their precious little dove.

Just be there with them,that is all that i shall ask,

You’ll experience all their love to bask.

A Companion for Life


Life may hit you very hard,

Bitter experiences may leave your soul scarred,

There may be times when your heart may feel marred.

What do you do then?Where shall your comfort lie?

Is it beyond those distant mountains? Or beyond the highest sky?

Who is there to wipe off those tears when you relentlessly cry?

Is there an answer? Or does it always remain an unsuccessful try?

Yes indeed there is always a fellow person,

A comrade,A friend, A companion who never lets it worsen.

He lends you his hand,He lends you his shoulder,

He wipes off your tears and he extinguishes the smolder

He makes you laugh, He puts you to sleep,

He helps you walk,He powers you into a leap.

You need not search him far,You need not call him loud,

His word is always with you,you may be alone or amongst a crowd.

He is a friend,He is a father and He is YOU,

He walks you along your life,He is your army,He is your crew.

I saw a Flower..


I saw a flower,it winked at me,

It was pretty and it was free.

I Wondered what kept it happy,what kept it warm,

It was her mother-the tree,that protected it from MAN and every other storm.

I saw a flower,it smiled at me,

It was elated,consumed in a happy spree.

It grew fast, bloomed so high,

Beautiful it was,purer than a sky.

I saw a flower,it gazed at me,

Puzzled it was, seeing the human captured unfree.

It saw the bruises,it saw the pain,

It saw the vile,it saw the feign.

I saw a flower,it pitied me,

It begged to go away,it made a plea.

Embarrassed I was,I wished I was pure,

Wished every morsel of me had at least a tiny cure.

I then took a step,set the flower free,

I hoped for its happiness,for its resplendent spree.

A Sanctuary…

A Sanctuary

Just imagine that you are stranded in an island, all you hear echoes of water against the shore,echoes of little birds dancing in the sky. At this juncture you may find peace for a little time.You may enjoy such a solitude for may be a few hours.Then starts a time when you find your solitude overwhelmingly painful. All you wish to have now is a companion to share your thoughts and fears with. Some may seek their loved ones (maybe a fiancee,a husband,a wife or a boy/girl friend),some wish to seek the divine help and some me seek some one else. But just take you time off for a second,who do you think is the first person who paid you a sanctuary. The person who first took you into his arms and promised himself that he would protect you from the very deadliest harms.


A Sanctuary

Just imagine that you are stranded in an island. Now all you hear are the echoes of water against the shore,echoes of little birds dancing in the sky. At this juncture, you may find peace for a little time,you may enjoy such a solitude for may be a few hours.Then starts a time when you find your solitude overwhelmingly painful. All you wish for now is to have  a companion to share your thoughts and fears with. Some may seek their loved ones (maybe a fiancee,a husband,a wife or a boy/girl friend),some wish to seek the divine help and some may seek some one else. But just take you time off for a second,who do you think is the first person who gave you a sanctuary. The person who first took you into his arms and promised himself that he would protect you from the very deadliest harms.Yes its your FATHER.

When a baby first makes its mark onto the earth, it cries..WHY? Everything feels new out there, all the warmth it had in a mother’s womb is now erased due to the new ambiance which the baby isn’t accustomed to. Now a father takes  the baby into his arms, leans the baby against his secure and strong body. He replenishes all the warmth lost after the baby comes out of the womb.He then takes an earthly pride when he shows his baby to his loved partner.Tears of joy overwhelm each of their faces.

The baby now grows, groomed by a mother and guided by a father. This GUIDANCE that a father gives to his baby is what that decides the baby’s real journey of life. When you face a juncture in your life where you have to choose between two paths, all those basic seeds of guidance help you in choosing the right path.It may not sound convincing..Once have a look at this videos,

One awesome seen from pursuit of happyness:

Another inspiring bit from Rocky Balboa:

I shouldn’t describe these videos as they them self speak a lot and its very obvious that any attempt made to describe them will only abate their value. These words of guidance shared by a father to his son are those little seeds that complete a person’s personality.One may often not remember these words word by word..but yes let me tell you,these words that are preached by a father are those that help you  choose your path.

Finally to conclude, one may reach many heights,those heights which are scaled by the mentoring of coaches,those heights which are scaled by one’s own unquenchable hunger to win but one has to never forget those words of glory preached by a FATHER.

Do you call it Rejection..??

Rejection..??

There goes a little girl,
Dancing with her little feet,making a petty twirl.
A princess in her father’s eyes,
Always her mother’s perfect prize.

She grew up and she bloomed high,
She resembled a shining star even in the darkest sky.
She made her people happy,she made them smile,
She made the air pure,never was there any vile.

Now,she made many new friends,
She felt a tight bond,never existed any loose ends.
She had a belief,she lent a trust,
Never did she realize that she would bear a thrust.

Her friends now broke the bond,
They had their good time with her,now each of them made their abscond.
The corner in the circle was now felt,
Many may be the people around her,the pain always overwhelmingly melt.

Now, what do you call all this??
Rejection??Oh no no,there is always the never ending nature’s bliss.
Whoever may or may not be in your life,
Some people always bear your every abject strife.

A mother, a father, a friend they are,
Though you never tried to make a bond,they are never too far.
For you,are they, always seeking your happiness,
Oh, don’t you feel rejected,don’t you take a stress.
You were never alone all this time,
Its only that you never tuned yourself to hear that chime.

Your people are only those,
Who not only pat over on your high’s but also the people who lend a hand during your lows.


Rejection..??

There goes a little girl,
Dancing with her little feet,making a petty twirl.
A princess in her father’s eyes,
Always her mother’s perfect prize.

She grew up and she bloomed high,
She resembled a shining star even in the darkest sky.
She made her people happy,she made them smile,
She made the air pure,never was there any vile.

Now,she made many new friends,
She felt a tight bond,never existed any loose ends.
She had a belief,she lent a trust,
Never did she realize that she would bear a thrust.

Her friends now broke the bond,
They had their good time with her,now each of them made their abscond.
The corner in the circle was now felt,
Many may be the people around her,the pain always overwhelmingly melt.

Now, what do you call all this??
Rejection??Oh no no,there is always the never ending nature’s bliss.
Whoever may or may not be in your life,
Some people always bear your every abject strife.

A mother, a father, a friend they are,
Though you never tried to make a bond,they are never too far.
For you,are they, always seeking your happiness,
Oh, don’t you feel rejected,don’t you take a stress.
You were never alone all this time,
Its only that you never tuned yourself to hear that chime.

Your people are only those,
Who not only pat over on your high’s but also the people who lend a hand during your lows.

Those Memories…

Those Memories

Those fine memories revving by,
little things that made me happy,and the brittle things that made me cry.
i was alone and there were none,
neither a shoulder to pry nor an enemy to shun.

There were all those little showers of glory,
Yet those ugly overwhelming darkest passing clouds filled most of the story.
the inner rage was mounting through,
never did i show,the listeners none,not even a few.

then appeared a hand that helped me cross,
through all those barriers,straight and gross.
the hand always gave an honest smile,
Oh yes i knew it was true and meant no guile.

It never spoke a lot i must say,
But everything it portrayed suggested it would forever stay.
Easy seemed all those ridges which i couldn’t even pass,
Oh you overwhelming solitude,how does it feel to be at loss??

Forever may be misery,hitherto may be pain,
I know the hand shall be there without any regret or a refrain.


Those Memories

Those fine memories revving by,
Little things that made me happy,and the brittle things that made me cry.
I was alone and there were none,
Neither a shoulder to pry nor an enemy to shun.

There were also those little showers of glory,
Yet those ugly overwhelming darkest passing clouds filled most of the story.
The inner rage was mounting through,
Never did i show,the listeners NONE,not even a few.

Then appeared a hand that helped me cross,
Through all those barriers,straight and gross.
The hand always gave an honest smile,
Oh yes i knew it was true and meant no guile.

It never spoke a lot i must say,
But everything it portrayed suggested it would forever stay.
Easy seemed all those ridges which i couldn’t even pass,
Oh you overwhelming solitude,how does it feel to be at loss??

Forever may be misery,hitherto may be pain,
I know the hand shall be there without any regret or a refrain.

A Belief,A Trust–A Friend


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I Know We Met As Strangers
Exchanged a Word or Two
Never Knew That God had Plans
Which Led Up to Me and You

He Had to Feel My Pain
He Had to Know My Fear
To Do This Wonderful Thing
By Bringing You Here

The Room Was not that crowded
I Knew a Name or Two
It Never Really Hit Me
That I was there for You

A Word Erupted From me
One I had Never Said
The Secret that I Kept Buried
Always Running Through my Head

A Hand Held Out in Comfort
A Heart to Feel my Pain
I was no Longer Alone
My Angel Had a Name

This is a Beautiful Lady
We Know Each Other Well
When We’re Flying Way Up High
Or When We’re Down in Hell

She is so Kind and Sweet
To Me Who Knows No Trust
I Tell Her Over and Over to Go
And Still She Just Says No

Now We Talk Almost Daily
Since That Lonely Night
When This Wonderful Woman
Brought to Me Some Light

I Really Love This Treasure
In Case You Don’t Know Who
This Very Special Friend of Mine
Is No One Other Then You