Alcohol kills slowly! But fuck yeah, who’s in a hurry? – an alcoholic!
Tag: friendship
I ain’t raising my glass!
Tonight I drink.
I drink until I forget,
I drink until I live.
Until the very last drop,
No I would not even consider to stop.
One glass at a time,
Maybe a bottle at once ?
Let my stomach drown in the bitterness,
Let my brain stop being mine,
Let the booze flow in my veins,
Tonight I forget.
I forget all the past,
I forget what the future holds,
Right now I drink.
I drink for myself,
Selfishly all to myself,
Oh, I deserve every bit of this.
The doc said not to,
My parents said not to,
Yet I want to.
This is what I want,
And for once I will take what I want.
Yes, I drink tonight,
Without any hint of the slightest fright,
Fuck my conscience! let it take its flight,
Tonight there wont be any light.
I’ll savor every bit of it,
Tonight I strengthen my grit.
I ain’t saying cheers,
I ain’t sharing with my peers,
This is all mine,
Let there be no boundary line.
Tonight I finish it all,
Let my soul take its deepest fall.
TONIGHT I DRINK!
The Swollen Vocal Chords
48 hours. It has been 48 effing hours that I spoke two full sentences. The problem – swollen vocal cords. I cannot utter a single word without going hoarse in the end. And what caused the problem ? Throat infection and of course my very bad drinking habits.
Absolute voice rest was suggested by my doctor and also a strict caution that I might loose my voice if I didn’t do so. But these 48 hours have been the most treacherous and yet at the same time the most well spent time that I had in a long time. 48 hours of self introspection, learning and of course with a few daily dosages of writhing pain deep in the heart ( not another medical condition though ).
The Cruel World..
In a world which cared for its own,
He cared for others, the selfish and the lone.
In a world which mauled the weak,
He brought strength and helped them speak.
But, was there any one to care for Him ?
Anyone to share his sorrows or his whim ?
A Curse!
Unspoken words and untraveled roads,
Fill my life, with a grief worth loads.
Living through the day and weeping through the night,
I drank too much, Oh, not even that can save me from this plight.
The tiny little bird!
(image courtesy: Google)
There was a bird, so very little,
In its nest away from a world so very brittle.
It had its mother, it had its father,
No trouble, no fear, nothing to bother.
A pain that stays…forever!
A pain that that kills,
A guilt that grills,
A feeling that pierces through,
An emotion that no one ever knew.
Was it a mistake or was it a sacrifice,
Was it a virtue or was it a vice ,
Without any clue here I am paying the price,
Writhing alone in this painful paradise.
I wish I could change all of this,
I wish I could restore the happiness, restore the bliss,
I wish I could seek light from this never ending abyss,
I wish I could just relive and reminisce.