It follows me everywhere,
Through the day and night.
Its devlish smirks all over the air,
Triggering an anxiety and a ghastly fright.
It never ceases to overwhelm,
It never ceases to stand down.
Even the smallest moments of elation,
Are ripped apart and yes I begin to drown.
Forgive me oh dear lord,
I know I have sinned.
Years of plodding in the desert of penance,
I’m already half torn, already skinned.
Yet, you still seek my retribution,
But why don’t you for once call a truce?
Didn’t you ever hear about absolution?
Oh for once let me unloose.
You threw me away miles away from my home,
Yet, your revenge plot never comes to an end.
So how much more should I aimlessly roam?
I am fed up, the pain made my heart distend.
I have now understood that It shall never leave me,
And thus I gave it a name.
‘The voodoo doll of loneliness’, shall never let me free,
For I am the only pawn in thee game.