A pain that stays…forever!


A pain that that kills,

A guilt that grills,

A feeling that pierces through,

An emotion that no one ever knew.

Was it a mistake or was it a sacrifice,

Was it a virtue or was it a vice ,

Without any clue here I am paying the price,

Writhing alone in this painful paradise.

I wish I could change all of this,

I wish I could restore the happiness, restore the bliss,

I wish I could seek light from this never ending abyss,

I wish I could just relive and reminisce.

 

I wish I could fly..


I wish I could fly,

Fly off into the endless night sky,

Away from all the evil,away from all the pain,

Oh I shall never ask for anything more ever and again.

Let me out, open the cage,

Let me flourish for once, let my bruises assuage.

Isn’t the wait enough, what more should I endure?

Would there ever be a key ? At-least a hint to help me assure?

I am flapping my wings in pain, I know I can never get out,

Oh, now I am tired,can’t anyone hear me cry or shout?

You don’t know the pain,

For your tears have never fallen down like rain.

To form a puddle at your feet,

For people to walk all over as they walk down the street.

Let me go out, let me touch the stars,

Help me break through,Oh please let me break these bars.

May be then i’ll be able to see,

How is it to live life, and to be the real person, they say me!

A Desperation..


A desperation, an urge,

To end this pain and to end this scourge.

They were all along my heart,

Those bruises, they just tore me apart.

Shall happiness again revive?

Oh, I cannot bear it anymore,I wanted an end to this fight,to this strive.

A part of me says to wake up, A part says never,

At least I can find you in my dreams, Oh please don’t let me sever.

A part of me is here, A part of me is you,

I’ve given you my heart I’ve given you my soul, Oh my last breath, take that too.

My soul always yearned to see you afore,

Oh yes, you did come, you brought me back ashore.

I now could feel the happiness, I now could feel the life,

I could feel the strength, Oh,watch me clear every strife.

Every little flower appeared to bloom,appeared to smile,

Oh, see them through my eyes,its only happiness, nothing evil and nothing vile.

Clasp my hand and hold it tight,

Let these moments last, for now, forever and through every twilight.

An Answer..


I was there standing alone,

Churning all those painful memories within,castaway and feeling thrown.

I could feel the heavy wind striking hard,

Reminding me of my earliest nightmares,I felt battered,I felt marred.

For once I wanted to be happy,why should it always be pain?

I never found an answer, all my cries were just in vain.

I’ve waited, waited long enough,

I cannot wait any longer, its getting hard,its getting tough.

I could then feel a hand upon me, it brought a sudden warmth, a sudden glee.

Was it the answer that I wanted? Would it mark and end to my misery? Would it end the spree?

I asked it the same, “Would you stay with me forever?”,

“I really need you, I cannot bear us both sever”.

It shared its happiness, it shared its love,

Now, I have a friend,my companion, my turtle-dove.

I no longer felt the pain,

The blistering heat that I bore, is now washed away, oh yes I now felt the rain.

It is my only sanctuary, my only belief,

Please help me LIVE, don’t ever leave me in grief.

The only word that mattered-Hope


Hope,the only single word that i’ve always thrived upon,

The only word that held me through every lonely dusk and every painful dawn.

Every agonizing thought and every hurtful memory that i’ve been through,

It was only hope that helped me stand firm,it was the only thing that I could turn to.

Now,even that tiny hope started to break away,

How can I survive, How can I stay?

Every flower I saw always seemed to bloom,

Didn’t it ever go  through a scorching summer,or atleast thrive through a gloom?

It answered yes, But then how could it never feel any of those fears,

Where I stand struggling every day to hide my painful tears.

I asked it the same,It said it always relied upon a word,

That word always ensured it a gleeful spring through every problem unheard.

It was Hope indeed,It promised the flowers,

That It shall make them happy,that It shall very soon bring the showers.

What mistake have I done?

Why should I be abandoned by It,Why should I be left with none?

I once spoke to a little kid,

What if your best friend finds out your love to her,what if she will forbid?

He said, there is a word that always avoids such a nightmare,

It always helped him stay strong,it always helped him adhere.

It was again Hope indeed, It ensured him a very firm consent,

But why was I discarded by It,why must only I be the sufferer of such a torment.

I really didn’t know what should I do,

Whom shall lend me a shoulder to cry upon,how shall I get through?

I only wish that It comes back to me,

Hope of Hope is all that is left,please comeback and set my soul free.

That empty street..


There I was,walking on that empty street,

Making tiny steps through those weary trembling feet.

Every step reminding me my pain,my past,

Oh,I just succumbed,feeling terrified and aghast.

Every thought portrayed your presence,your smile,

These are my tiny moments to cherish,Oh bearing this pain is worthwhile.

Was it just the time that divided us or was it only me?

Let me affirm,all that mattered was your happiness,your glee.

The distance now seems so very far,

Every moment with you , now a very deep scar.

We are two worlds apart,

Why should this happen? Oh,it just breaks my heart.

I only wish I had one more chance,

Please show me that your are happy,at least grant me a glance.

A Mere Thought..


The silence was too much,I was scared,

Lost in my thoughts,my senses impaired.

Thought those thoughts would never be revived,

A mere glimpse of you just brought it all,Oh it just happened nothing contrived.

I could hear my heart pound,I felt the blood ooze,

The pain was too much,I couldn’t bear the piercing bruise.

What was the pain about and why did it hurt?

Loosing the person you love the most makes you feel drenched in a spurt.

I cherish those days when you made me smile,

I cherish every moment you made me feel pure and deprived me of my vile.

I thought that they would last,I wished that you would be in my arms forever,

Oh didn’t I deserve you? You just left my heart sever.

Maybe it was my fault, I could never make a leap,

Never thought that there would be scars too deep.

What can I do now? Will those moments ever come back?

I knew the answer,I knew I should bear the wrack.

I know that my pain shall never end,

All that I can do is to bear everything and move by the scend.

The tears..!


Tears just rolled down,

Was I happy or Is it the frown?

What was it? Why did I weep?

What was happening then?Is any one hurt or Is it a nightmare,Oh am I asleep?

I was awake indeed,It was the little baby afore,

She seemed so happy,those eyes-I really adore,

Yes,she was watching me,

Her eyes with filled with happiness and glee.

She held me up her toy,

It was an offer,she wanted to spread the joy.

Oh yea,its the end of the happy times,

The offer brought me back to the earth,It once again put forth the world’s crimes.

Now,I realize the reason behind those tears,

It was the a momentary relief from the pain that I bore for years.

What was the pain I asked again,

It was my shadow,It always glanced with disdain.

It always had a complaint,

That it was tired of being my only acquaint.

Oh yes it was true,there wasn’t any other,

To walk along,hand in hand or to atleast bother.

Maybe it was my only partner for life,

Or is there someone to end the un-ending strife?

Those eyes again pulled me back,

Wish I had the power to take my childhood aback.

I then moved on,the baby still had the smile,

Her eyes,Oh yes they made me LIVE for a while!

A tide..


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I wake up everyday,I stare outside,

I wait for all those reveries but I always see an overwhelming tide.

Shudders pass through,Oh I am scared,

I was waiting for someone,there were none but the tide’s width only flared.

What do I do? Should I run away or should I just quit?

Or is there anyone to help me befit?

I stared around,I found none,

I just froze and I couldn’t run.

The tide just followed,it broke away all the hope,

Oh it was just so overwhelming,It’s glimpse,I couldn’t even cope.

I then just turned around,I felt something,

It was my shadow that gave a touch so soothing.

I promised that it would stay along,

Forever and the time to come,Yes,The promise made me strong.

I then took a step away,

From the tide and the sorrows that followed everyday.

When you cannot find anyone at the time of your despair,

Always remember that your are your true companion and a partner in a pair.